When I look behind

Kuch aisa piche chuut gaya
ya wo bs h ruth gaya
milega mujhe kabhi kya wo dubara?
ya ab h bs aise hi rehna
chahu toh kadam bada bhi lu
chahu toh khud ko behla bhi lu
dhundla dhundla sa kuch yaad h
pr hr lamha uske na hone ka ehsaas h
kya wo jagah abhi bhi h khali
na hone se uske hi h ye udaasi
jaanta hai mann ki wo na ayega ab
aankhen thak gayi intezar kr
kyu hai koi aata
jhuta sa spna dikhata
apna h ban jata
fir na jaane kahan kho jata